Wednesday, August 31, 2005
super tired!! had to wake up at 530am in the morning for last rehersal at the hall and in the end? the councillors were only ready at 730am. really lousy la the councillors. told us to be there by 7 and they themselves late. what the toot.
only got to practice once. the ending sounded really weird. got some boom sound and clapping after that...saw kenny there for his house exco preformance (sing song) then after that we had to change.
our dance was not that bad. but i dun think all of us gave our best... could have been better. i was so irritated that one of my sleeve i rolled up came down. look so weird. adjusted it and continued the dance. the other group's dance more funny to watch i think. and i feel that its more revelant to the teachers and their sone more catchy than ours. but WHATEVER. we are the best. *evil laughter*
wanted to go back scgs. but super tired and only got yenling there... so nevermind.
i treat kenny bubble tea and he treat me and ash waffle.. yay! then had to print out his photo with shoik hoon to put it in his photo frame with the words "shuai dai le!" there. after that on our way home in the train we were talking to yoona. and kenny was going on to his usual lies saying that his half korean and showing off that he knows how to count 1-10 in korean. i was too sleepy to bother.
i'm like dozing off as i type that blog entry. better take a nap then go study with grace.
.lost.`@ 1:37 PM
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
today was really chaotic sia.
first got pe got to play games but i went to run rounds with kenny and ash. so totally cannot catch up i started walking after 3/4 of one round. then kenny and melvin compromised to run with my pace for the next round. but i ended up looking like i was running with some circus people cos the two of them were busy one showing off his kung fu moves while jogging, the other challenging him. they were like running ballerinas twirling in circles! super weird but cute la. =P
after that got gp test, do compre. then got bio lesson. james, the bio rep brought us tour around the school looking for where the class is held. some bio rep.
but i'm not a better maths rep than him. forgot to give out questions for the class to present. oops!=P
then got student dialogue. they were announcing the different classes with late coming and which onces can leave early tomorrow for teachers day. we got 2 late comers. the whole class was raging at jiahui and the other unknown person which we found out later was me supposedly. then after eating our pizza outside the container classes cos they were al locked, we told lao shi to go help us debate cos both jieying and jiahui got mc for the day they were late. problem solved!!
after that while waiting for kenny to finish his rehersal, we went to watch the solo semifinals for the karaoke competition. some were good, others were like "how did they even make it through?"
then me, ken, ash and james went off to ikea at 7 to go buy teacher's day present. we bought all the things that were quite related to our video dedication and some class jokes. lao shi got a wok for her extra ingredients chao guo tiao, duncan got a timer so he wouldn't cheat us of our time in tests. =) mr sim got some tupperware for his "ai xin zao can" and ms seah got some diapers for her zygote. got james to pay for everything first and we had to wrap the presents in recycled paper given outside ikea. do until 1030pm la. super late and tired from the shopping by the time i got home it was 1130pm. and have to perform for teacher's day tomorrow plus be there by 7am.
*yawns* going to practice a bit more before the real one
.lost.`@ 11:55 PM
Monday, August 29, 2005
had chinese test early in the morning.. was late to arrive as usual. but the paper can still finish.
after that had lessons per normal, then went to eat kfc with ash and yixian. now i owe her $26 cos she bought the chicken for me. eat until super duper full. then saw this weird woman loitering around in and out of kfc, looking at us eat, look at the menu, go over to swensons to see the menu, then came back. we were all giving the EYE.
at the same time, we were talking about impossiblilities and we started making up things about other people like,(example) "getting daps to be quiet is like getting yixian to be vegeterian, kenneth being a chinese professor, fifi eating pork, ash becoming white, etc."
after that with my bulging stomach went for dance practise. totally couldn't dance at all. got no energy and one jump and i can feel the food in my stomach going around.
so screwed.
.lost.`@ 10:04 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
went to cut my hair today with jasmine. and my mom started her round two of "getting on Simone's nerves". she had to go off to service and my little brother was wasting time loitering around watching cartoon. i wanted to wait for jasmine to come then i go down to meet her so i was sitting around minding my own business. then she told me to draw $40 for her cos she's late and she assumed i was waiting for her to give me money for my haircut. at the lift lobby she suddenly changed her mind wanted me to draw $80 but i misheard it as $50. so she got pissed cos she can't split the $50 note into two and give it to me. so i told her i got money. then she scolded me for not telling her i got money and i dun need her money. then she walked off, called me and scolded me over the phone for letting her miss her bus and she was going to be late and all. then during my tuition she had to continue teling me that the problem lies with me not opening my mouth with i am suppose to. I told her that i have been keeping my mouth shut for my entire life. now then you noticed? I'm trying to change but you seriously can't expect immediate results.
so irritated. i think when she comes home it will be round three.
.lost.`@ 3:34 PM
Saturday, August 27, 2005
today went to study with ash in school library. didn't really accomplish much only did maths and studied bio. after that we went to novena to eat with kenny. and our bet is off cos i hit him again. but i dun need to treat him to the movie maid so its better off this way. he super bad la, start to pick fights with me after i admit i'm always the first one that starts fighting. evil.
anyways went over his house to watch southpark. about michael jackson. really funny when he says "no thats ignorant, you're being ignorant." and poor blanket. oh ya kenny died as usual in it.
wanted to learn to blade but got to go for cell, so we going his house again on tuesday i think to blade. watch me fall.
super irritated with my mother. i came home after church on a really high mood cos i felt really touched by God in service today. wanted to go eat with maurice and yingmin, but she sms told me to come straight home. then before i sleep she started insulting my ministry saying that if it is good i wouldn't have liked a non-christian guy in the first place. and started saying that i stayed in kfc because of him. i'm like firstly if you want to talk christian with me you wouldn't have insulted my church. it shows how bad your church is for you too. and she has no right to judge other people and their churches. she hasn't been there how would she know if God is not moving in His own ways there? besides, the ministry can't do anything much if the individual insists on not doing their time alone with God. and there are other factors that affect the relationship of God and me. and its not like i'm not doing anything to salvage it. she's only gonna make things worse.
i held myself back from screaming at her cos i know i have to be filial to her. even Jesus doesn't talk back to mary although He knows that He is the Son of God. i must follow Him!
Wo ren!!!
.lost.`@ 11:33 PM
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Yay! got more neoprints!! and some more foc thanks to yixian! =P
i seriously think i'm extorting her a little too much. must remember to pay her back the $20. AFTER daphne pays ME back $15. hee hee that would take forever.
today really fun took tons of photos with the class. i think the topic of the day would be mao shen cupping james butt. cos the guys were carrying james the muscle man and no one supported his spine. and mao shen was all "I'm on it!!!" and rushed there to grab james' buttocks. poor thing. another victim after fifi.
skipped dance today to go j8 with ash and yixian. and kenny came after we were almost done saying that he got in the auditions for the karaoke competition. i actually believe him la. but the moment we told him to sing the chinese song he sang and he didn't really know the lyrics, i was like the story is getting more and more not credible. wanted to watch the maid, but too late la so...
for the past two days our money is spent like water. ash and yixian both had $50 with them and at the end of the day they left about $20. and considering all of us failed most of our tests, its quite amazing we can still go out.
k must start to be a mugger at home like ash.
.lost.`@ 7:01 PM
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
super tired. just finish doing half of tutorial 9.3 and half of 10.1.
i so cannot do anymore questions. brain overload. and my eyelids are gonna crash any moment.
have been sleeping super early for the past few days/weeks. now can't even stay up until before midnight.
so sad today la. got back 3 test papers and all fail. what the toot.
anyways i'm over it. gotta get on with life and work harder. what's new?
have been wanting to download more songs into my mp3. but its always either the com not free or i'm not free. should get a laptop like charm and shou. poly so cool la.
what did we do today? went northpoint buy rotiboy, esprit with daps. oh ya, promised to try clothes with her tomorrow. then went novena eat subway. nice to eat it but the ingredients and crumbs just fall all over the place. very messy after we eat. then go kenny house for a while thanks to james and his precious chem periodicity notes. what is the use of betting when it didn't seem to spur them on but our grades all just fell even worse?
oh ya on the way home i realised how evil and nolochalant some singaporeans can be or act like that. got this secondary school boy drop his school uniform cos they always have the habit of hanging their pe shirt at the handle of their school bags. looks super weird to me la. so k it dropped on the floor. and the middle aged man walking directly behind him just lift up his stupid legs to step over the shirt la! super bad! then not only that person didn't bother to let the boy know, the whole entire world just seem to be blind or they treat the shirt like some rag on the floor. stupid shit. i went up to let the boy know. talk about what's going on in this world we live in.
.lost.`@ 11:08 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
what the toot do they mean that our moves were too raunchy and they want some 1970s song?
its already an amazement that we could come up with a proper dance in less than ten hours. now the stupid councillors want to have a second audition! i'm so pissed i'll just say all the four letter words anytime (I dun use them ok).
in the first place they never even specify any requirements like what kind of song, moves etc. only say that it must be within 5 mins. now they say we have to perform, but must be more old fasioned to suit the principal. just becos that janitor is going to retire soon we have to change the entire thing? no way.
might as well get the wushu and co people to perform for her. HELLO!! the students and young teachers wouldn't mind the dances lor. even mr. oh one of the judges was ok with it. all boils down to the councillors. charmaine in charge one la. that tiny thing.
now the next audition is on tuesday. so we dun even have enough time to practise. we've been going to dance to practise and practise 4 out of 5 school days until my muscles aching like anything and they dun even appreciate it.
stupid shit heads.
.lost.`@ 8:31 PM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
super super tired!!!
but at least the auditions are over.
so stupid la only got 3 performances including us. one was a song sang by mia and taufik and kai and this other girl.. the other one was a band with some guy singer but he was way off tune..
then lastly was us! yoo na at the first part forgotten her steps and you can tell how nervous she was la... but overall i think it was quite good. although got some parts messy (what you expect from only less than ten hours of practise) i think the breakdancing part more different from the usual dances the past dance club has performed cos they usually have no guys. so i guess the guys do have some credit!
oh ya saw anis and kevin there. i think kevin must have been laughing at the back of his mind la.
i'm gonna sleep as soon as i eat my dinner. have been practising for the past few days and never stretch before hand. now my muscles are aching. and got 2.4km run tomorrow!!! this time really sei ah.
now i got the teacher's day dance and auditions dance stuck in my mind. i'm gonna dance in my sleep.
.lost.`@ 6:07 AM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
the song 'do somethin'' is now offically stuck in my mind.
with the music blasting into my ears while we practise over and over again for the dance auditions, i'm gonna get nightmares tonight.
the dance is just plain weird. its a combination of 3 songs.
one: (you so will not believe this) the mickey song "oh mickey you're so fine..."
two: do somethin'
three: some weird song the boys are going to break dance in.
so at the first part we have to act bimbotic and pose those act cute poses la... mao should have joined dance.
super tired now after yesterday and just now. and only got 10 of us dancing including the guys. cos some of them couldn't make it for the practise or totally skipped it on mon so they won't be able to catch up.
sigh. anyways lao shi really too much la. keep on saying its not the first time we pon her lesson when its our first. PLEASE. i know we dun really pay attention but we are definitely better than those who totally skip chinese lesson.
dunno what to blog already. my brain is starting to malfunction. i forgot to photocopy maths tutorial how to do 9.4 by tomorrow?? and the questions haven give out finish.
screw maths la.
.lost.`@ 8:19 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
just came home from studying at the bishan cc with grace and charm.
super cold there. almost died. and while in there i've accumulated more sickness upon my body.
woke up so early in the morning to take neoprint with my godbro but so early in the morning got no mood. then he send me to the cc and went off to work.
there i was super aimless not like grace got a whole list of to-dos pasted in front of her. did a bit of bio and maths. then i realised i forgotten to get a copy of the chapter 9 notes. again.
asked ash but he ask me to ask kenny. so amazed and shocked that he was actually willing to step out of his house to lend me the notes to photocopy. so must say THANK YOU KENNY! unfortunately i owe you one if i can pass for my maths test =P
oh well, tried to study for the remaining time... i'm so amazed at myself cos i think i've spent the longest time ever in this year to sit down and study! must go there every week. cannot get retained!!!
after that go see my godbro again. got him to send me home and pay for my food! haha so good to go out with him cos i practically eat up all his money! so he went home broke.
so evil of me.
.lost.`@ 9:03 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
We will win the WAR!!!!
haha not war la just the status for the best platoon ever in history!!
the part as '04 think they are the first platoon to do everything... we got do some of the things they supposedly do first k...
and we are the best ncos ever k if not how could we have recruited them to continue OUR legacy.
so no doubt about it. NCOs 2004 is the best!
.lost.`@ 9:18 AM
Friday, August 12, 2005
feeling super sick. so not going for detention tomorrow i think. my mp3 always cannot take out the cable properly without having the words "ERROR". weird.
oh ya i shall make an apology to kenny for SUBCONSCIOUSLY making up the "tau pok face" description. it really wasn't intentional.
and must thank ash for lending my his i-pod while mine was away for vacation.
so there. why am i so nice today?
must be the drugs.
.lost.`@ 5:36 PM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
i went to esplanade to watch the countdown fireworks for our 40th national day. my mom, aunt, little brother and cousins came along also. wanted to get my godbro to go but he working too tired to go down just to watch that 15 mins of fireworks...
it was quite fun to meet my cousin again considering our families haven been gathering as often ever since my last grandparent died. she also in scgs now sec4 one year younger than me.. can say because of our age she's like the closest relative on this side of my family.
anyways cos she's pretty close with my ncc juniors, who all couldn't really believe we were cousins, we chatted about the ncc now, and some of the juniors in her squash that are crazy about her. my cousin very shuai but she is totally straight. her dressing probably under the influence of her only older brother thats why...
so i was teasing her and all and she was telling me not to let her bro hear all this cos he's very strict with her... almost wanted to scold her for being out so late until he realised she's with her mom. really envy her cos although i have 2 older siblings, they are pretty much bothered only about their own lives and this is most probably why i'm so independent. i don't rely on any person when it comes to decision making and all, not even my mom or much less my dad.
anyways the fireworks started when we were strolling away of our moms, she really can't stand the crowd keep on saying how she wished the railings will loosen and everyone will fall into the water to make space for us and everyone would get bombed as the fireworks start... so i dragged her along, made our way through the crowd that was totally blocking our view, went to the bridge for the ferry, climbed over the railings (almost fell into the water) to get the nicest view!! very nice to see it la but we all never bring cam to take pic so sad right...
anyway very tired already must sleep.
.lost.`@ 1:22 AM
Monday, August 08, 2005
yay!!! went for the last service of FOP last night. came back about 12 i think...
super fun to just get back into the mood of worshipping God and just praising Him and focusing all your attention on Him! i think its about time that i get back into the attitude of worship after being depressed and all for so long... must bind that spirit of depression!
andway today went to school for a while for NDP celebration... really miss scgs NDP... so so so much better and end a lot earlier. went to sit in the container with popiah and grishma to slack and think of how to escape! haha had fun in my desperation to sneak out and the uncle opened for us la thanks to bp's charms...
then me and mich went to meet yenling and amanda for lunch at mos burger. but at first we were quite dissapointed cos we were hoping to see others... sigh so much for escaping when the POC is over somemore. but heard it was kind of crappy with only ONE cadet from next batch. and one platoonmate passed out to her own platoonmate. super pathetic.
but mich is totally different la outside yjc.. she and i also didn't really talk on the mrt but later when yl and lyla then we are more crazy together. dunno why also la. then i told her about some scandals i heard about her, she told me some she heard about me... then go on and on and on...
then after going nuts then jasmine came, brought us super nice hand-baked muffins to eat! then mich left so we headed to yl's house all the way at hougang. just to play cards. she is like a deprived child keep on telling us so happy she finally got people to play bridge with her. sheesh. but it was fun nontheless.
after that went J8 meet shoulian for dinner at thai express. the food super spicy but super shiok!! then we went swensens to eat $4 sundae but got add gst and all la... oh man come to think of it i have spent a lot of money today la. although couldn't hang out with ash and ken and yx and all but still it was fun to meet up with them once in a while and reinforce the fact that WE NCOs 2004 are still the best NCOs in all of scncc la!!! haha!!! got the least no. of retainees, all got below 20 points for o levels, got 5 prefects with the head prefect with us, recruit 13 part as all never quit, and the most united platoon ever! yay!
.lost.`@ 9:53 PM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
i dunno why i am feeling super irritated with my so-called frens in school. its like i suddenly wish i was back to the anti-social me with no friends to watch my every move and make a big joke about it every. single. day. if i could choose i wished i didn't even need to go to school, to be battling with the sinister remarks people make about me and my guilty conscience when i gossip about someone. i am trying so hard to revert back to the Godly me. but i know very well that without God i can't.
they are fun people to hang out with but their acts are not what my church friends would deem right. its like a want the best of both worlds. i wan to have fun in this world but i do not wan to be part of the world. i know this sounds all Christian but thats who i am suppose to be.
i am so confused with myself even if someone asks me the most basic question of faith like where would i go right now if i die i wouldn't be sure if it was heaven.
.lost.`@ 11:04 PM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
dunno why it seems like these days i keep pondering about the different faces or characters i have when i am with different people. does everyone do that or isit just me?
I dunno why i'm so bothered about this... maybe cos i really wan to know which is the real me? or am i just acting accordingly to the environment around me... like when i'm in school i gossip about people, at home i'm amazingly quiet. at church i can go all crazy like some mad woman with grace, and with my platoon i just wan to serve them and enjoy having them with me...
i feel so hypocritical until i don't even know if i am myself when i talk to God. not that i talk to Him very often nowathese days...
sigh i'm so confused with myself. and my thing with di is suddenly surfacing all over again. he shouldn't have called me in the first place after that so-called cooling off period. lasted about 20 days?
now he never answer my sms. i am so sad and worried and angry at him. what if he is really avoiding me or he's got himself landed in hospital again or he has been telling me big fat lies all this time? and i can't believe that i am actually thinking of him. me. a 17yr old big girl. twirlled around a 14yr old boy's finger. sheesh. i am taking longer than i thought i would to get out of this complicated relationship.
kill me.
.lost.`@ 3:59 AM
