Saturday, October 07, 2006
i'm dehydrated.
this has been a really bad week.
having breakdowns everyday.
I'm seriously stressed out. not just becos of studying of course.
got a lecture all of the sudden from my mom today. thats why i don't like telling her personal stuff. she'll always use it against me someday. she had to bring up that subject that ended last year to demean me.
wanted to sign up for water baptism with charm... but deadline's tomorrow and i don't know if i'm ready. so just leaving it to God. now i'm the only one let not baptised i think in sc cell.
i realised its so hard to find a place to cry. cos i share a room with my sister so at times when i cry as i ponder over stuff at night, i have to make sure i don't make a sound. that seems to bottle up my emotions more than i'm suppose to let out.
i want to go to a park at night. let it all out. i want to scream at someone. flare my anger.
oh crap.
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