Saturday, July 09, 2005
Ok I shall let them gloat. I failed Chem and Maths!!
(Ash and Ken: "Yipee!!" hear party popers in background)
My imagination. running wild.
Sigh so sad la but also so happy! saw yenling and kaiqian and mich and shoulian and amanda.
although I see mich in school almost everyday but we barely talk when its just the 2 of us.
kaiqian didn't join us for dinner, amanda and shoulian went for maddcap. so only a weird combi of the three of us. but I was amazed I actually had fun.
ok so at first we were back at scgs, updating ourselves our each other's love lives. Kai got a bf and they broke up after 2 months and she didn't even feel sad. Mich prefer to stay as close frens to wait for God's timing (yay!) and the rest unattached. dunno why mich seems pretty different now. its like she seemed super happy and relaxed and just being super slow... kind of cute actually cos I barely see her that 'her' in yjc. I guess I just didn't realise that she was that unhappy in here.
As yenling and mich and I were chatting, I really didn't know that they are feeling so uneasy in their schools. Yenling doesn't really have any close frens in rjc, cos they are not really her type. and mich she's super straight with her words so she kind of pissed some people in her class accidentally. sigh, its so good to just talk to them. I dunno they just make me peel my facades off. I guess we all feel the same way about each other. we can be unglam, blur, slow, make lame jokes and have people laughing at it, be striaght with our words and nobody gets offended, just be ourselves. We really missed the days. and I believe we all feel that out of all our frens in secondary school, only ours will last longest.
dun get me wrong, its not that I'm not happy or I'm not myself with my yjc frens. but somehow they make you sub-consiciously think twice of what you plan to do or say. like if I wanted to say something lame to add on the joke, they would most probably star at you. you must be careful with your actions cos they would use it to joke about you over and over again. I mean, ok joke about it when I made the blunder. but to rake it up every single day? its too much for me to take and I'll get super insulted and pissed. and I know they are concern about me and Amin. but don't I have the right to even keep my secrets? we are not that close until I can tell them everything and not get pissed when they insult me. besides, after all they have said about me and amin, do you think I would wan to tell them anymore stuff? I'll just be digging my own grave.
.lost.`@ 12:03 PM
